Ok, I have a sponsor who has a lot of time (26 yrs) and gives really good direction for those of you who follow a 12 step program. I have between 1 and 2 years and it has taken me a long time to get to this point. Years and years and years of relapses and ruining my life and starting over and ending up in the hospital and near fatal comas and all kinds of good stuff like that. So my sponsor wants me to attend a meeting that he does each week which is not a big deal but after doing my 5th step last month I made a plan to do this and flaked on him. I just so turns out that today is the day of this meeting. I had convinced myself that I don't like this meeting or the people at it. I am going again today and no matter how uncomfortable I am I will be there and seek his direction as I am more willing to do what ever it takes to stay sober than to go back out and use again. I must remember that it is much easier to stay sober than it is to get sober. I also have a tendency to want to listen to what my best friend says about this meeting as opposed to actually going with an open mind and this has been poison to me. I gotta go without him and become a part of this group as there are many highly successful people there. Being afraid of them will only keep me locked in the same box I have been for many years. If i really want to have more change in my life than I have already then I will take the direction of someone else who has been where I am. This is really all related to success as well. I am scared of reaching a point where I am really successful. Okay, wish me luck I am taking a leap of faith here. Have a great day all.